Raining on the Inside
I might be people-phobic! I was with too many people yesterday! Around 8pm I totally checked out. I should have gone directly to bed. But instead I stayed up and yelled at anyone who dared glance or speak to me!
Today I’m suffering the aftermath. I’m on the verge of tears. It’s raining inside.
I felt like I was just coming out of the fog… and then – BOOM! My face hit the wall! One day up, next day down. This is so typical of depression! Can I get a witness? Anyone?
But the Lord did not hide His face from me. He is with me on the jagged path. This scripture was brought to mind today:
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. (Psalm 46:1-7)
I especially connect with vs 4 – “there is a river whose streams make glad the city of God.” Isn’t that beautiful and inviting?
Here’s what Matthew Henry’s commentary says of verse 4:
God’s word and ordinances are rivers and streams with which God makes his saints glad in cloudy and dark days. God himself is to his church a place of broad rivers and streams, Isa.33:21. The streams that make glad the city of God are not rapid, but gentle, like those of Siloam. Note, The spiritual comforts which are conveyed to the saints by soft and silent whispers, and which come not with observation, are sufficient to counterbalance the most loud and noisy threatenings of an angry and malicious world.
God’s knows our need friends. His word IS sufficient and it CAN combat our internal struggles. The streams of the Lord will counterbalance an overbearing world. Let us open ourselves to His inner and external work in our lives!